So very sorry to read of your loss. This is a whole new experience for all of us, being alone after being together takes time to get used to. I don’t like my new life one bit and didn’t choose it, but here it is and I’m gradually realising its not going to change anytime soon. But do take time to grieve, you loved your wife and that will not stop so go on loving her and missing her and accepting that she will always be a big part of you. Good Luck for your future, lovely that you have a pet dog, they bring such love and comfort. Aways around if you need to chat.